Do You Take This Man?
It was
never an equal alliance
And…
I am
assured that I need never
Again be
unequally yoked. What freedom
I didn’t
do dalliance – but
Flirtation
was the only (?)
At which I
could present myself
And
starting to uncover a real me
Was too
painful
A foreign
country – without a map
And I a
geographical illiterate
Well, I
didn’t speak the language
And only
understanding a word or two
I,
naturally, stood on the precipice
Unfolding
a veil just enough to titillate
A peek or
two
Then
What do I
do
My mama
never told me
Nor showed
me
How good
it felt to be me
What
license
Seems I
needed your permission
To hunt in
the garden
Of make
believe
Where
phantoms flit
Beneath
the trees
And among
the flowers
Perfect
precision in a
Well
landscaped design
Boxed
borders and profusions
Of
delicate blossoms
Colors and
texture
Wafted
perfumes – too heady
To control
the senses
Running
amuck
Nowhere to
hide
Am I to
stay stuck? Inside?
Exposed to
the frippery
With an
all too obvious
“For Sale”
sign
Across my
bosom
Belying
the heaving mass of nervous gaglia
Surrounding
this pubescent heart
No
connections with the gut
Which is
shrieking
For help
and guidance
And time
and tolerance
And
acceptance
When I
didn’t even know the words
Let alone
their meanings
No wonder
I felt empty
From my
chin to my knees
Naked,
exposed
Not even a
feather to cover
My most
vulnerable self. Please
Can I
crawl back on the shelf
And like
the Cheshire Cat
Slowly
dis-------a-------pear
With only
the grin
To show
that I was ever there
That I was
ever
That was
That I
I
4-21-98
4-21-98
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